Real life, true talk... I'm going to bed incredibly sad tonight...

Started my day cleaning for the cleaning lady. She was running a fever so she didn't come.

Then I had a terrible doctor appointment where I couldn't even see my doctor (they pulled the old Physician's assistant switcheroo at the last minute). Which I don't mind but my doctor and I have been working on a couple things together and this woman didn't seem to care, she only wanted me out the door because they were pretty far behind. And my issues got swept under the rug... I don't even know how to address it...

Then met with a client who's been going through chemo (who has been doing great) but was still shocked to see her nearly bald head. She's just as bright and bubbly as she's always been so it's a relief to have some normalcy there.

Then I had a productive lunch meeting. Came home in traffic. I hate traffic. Especially rush hour traffic.

Then proceeded to blow up my network config and take out my internet connection. Couldn't get it going because I had to take the kids to their first soccer practice, got eaten by ants in the grass. My foot is so fucking itchy.

Then while at soccer I got the news of a terrible accident that happened in our neighborhood, and to make things worse it was people we know. They're family of our very close friends. I've done work in their home. I had to explain what happened to the kids in the car on the way home from soccer. They still don't really understand. Lyza couldn't figure out why her friend didn't show up at soccer practice. She's in the same class and they're really good friends. I'm worried about what's going to be said at school tomorrow. I know her friend won't be there but I know there'll be talk about what happened to her sister...

I read some comments of some of the news stories that have come out since the accident and that was a mistake. People are seriously the fucking worst. Even if I weren't close and know the family personally I wouldn't think or say the awful things people are saying.

When I got home I was able to put a bandaid on my network issue. At least the family would have internet access while I was at my Dad's club meeting. The meeting was good but my head and heart weren't in it...

I got home about an hour ago and was able to finally fix my network. But all I can think about is "what the fuck just happened?" I can only say this... Hug your family tight and keep them close... You never know when it all might go sideways.